The meaningful adulthood experience is the one I’m still going through. With my parents divorcing doesn’t feel like the end of the world. I’m grown enough to be mature about it, but it’s harder when you’re a teen understanding everything that’s happening and why. Being the oldest also puts a little bit of more weight on your shoulders, because you try to be the rock for your siblings. You feel like you’re stuck in the middle and trying not to pick sides. Having a fifteen year old brother and a seven year old sister is a blessing. It’s just frustrating hearing my little sister ask for her dad, and my brother being a typical boy not showing his emotions and just keeps to himself about everything. My parents were married fifteen years, almost sixteen. They decided to separate three weeks before December the 16th, which was their anniversary. So in November is when they broke it down to us, leaving us with the worst gift ever for Thanksgiving and Christmas. It has been five months going on six, and I still can’t get used to it. Home just isn’t the same. It’s not easy looking back and knowing our dad would come home around seven in the evening and when that time comes, the house remains silent. It’s definitely not easy knowing someone new most likely might come in the picture, even though my siblings and I know they could never be our parents. My father is actually a step dad, but he has raised me since I was two years of age. So, typically he is my father. The hardest thing to see is my brother act like nothing about this bothers him, and how he shows excitement when he gets to see our dad. Another thing is for my baby sister to act like she hates him for leaving, but her getting all happy when she actually sees him and doesn’t want to let go when it’s time to say goodbye.
Nothing about this stands out due to the fact that divorce is everywhere and happens to half of us. It has changed me in many ways. Not that it has made me bitter, but it’s made me realize what I really want with my life. Nobody knows what is in store for you in the future. You just have to take it day by day and hope for the best and don’t live in the past. This experience has showed me it could be worse. At least my siblings and I still have both our parents physically and emotionally compared to other divorces. It has only made me a stronger person and to not take anything and anyone for granted. It has taught me the value of honesty, family, and much more. Holidays, summers, and vacations will be different due to splitting everything in half. Life will be much different from here on out. Not just me but everyone should just look for the positives instead of dwelling on the negatives. Nothing is going to go good until all the bad is gone. “It’s only going to get worse before it gets better”-Anna Flores.
Me with my little brother and sister
I know what it's like for the dad not to be there. My heart is with you. Your little brother needs to let his emotions out or he might be like my son, Brian. One day he will, but he has a strong sister to support him. Bless you all.
ReplyDeleteAnna, due to the way that you express your feelings, I notice that you are an extraordinary person. You are very generous in that you look out for your brother and sister rather than worry about your feelings. You are stronger than you think, and you have to be even stronger now that your family needs you. I am sure that you will find the way to help them and yourself cope with the situation. Continue doing what you do and God will help you overcome the pain that you feel.
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